as i was sitting in church today being preached to about forgiveness i started thinking about my situation and how i havent forgiven him for all the pain and suffering he put me through. i decided that to be happy i have to forgive and for me to forgive will be really hard but i feel like its what God was trying to tell me as i was sitting there thinking and praying. so i decided to text him and tell him that i was going tp forgive him for hurting me and that i hope one day we will be able to fill that friendship that was so important to both of us again. i havent gotten a text back and i probably wont but he needed to know that even though i dont want him back i still really care for him and i dont want to lose our friendship. he has impacted my life more than anyone else in this world and now that hes gone i have no one to talk to and no one to cry to… maybe ill find someone to fill that friendship or maybe him and i will become that again one day but i needed to let him know that he is forgiven and i care about him still. everyone deserves a second chance and i guess this is his…
xo Anna
